Grieve

Some days I feel light and free, enjoying this change trusting that this is an opportunity for myself to do things differently in my life. Some days, I find myself crying early in the morning, feeling low, full of grief, missing my precious little Sammie. Especially on that last day of my Bali retreat. I am allowing myself to feel the emotions as they arise as I know how important it is to honour them, to give them importance as overtime my heart will heal. Each day I take it as it is, letting go and just showing up and doing things that I love.

I have a plan for my grieving. Yeah, sounds odd. But I think I like to take responsibility or take charge over my life. I have thought of doing a self care/grieve rescue box where I can just go to during moments when I need the extra love or when that wave of grief uninvitingly hit you hard in your heart. I am reading books on grief and loss as reading another person's story somehow brings comfort to me and knowing how they cope gives me inspiration and hope.

One of my top things to do as part of my grieving process is to not walk away from looking at her pictures or avoiding it, which is something I tend to do in the past. I decide to face it straight on. Boy, it was just so tough. The first day of sorting and compiling and editing her pictures, I was in tears for hours. The second day got easier and now I am almost done with her photobook and I am feeling that great sense of accomplishment! Go Sue!You can do this!

I decided to commit myself to a 365 day gratitude and thank you project. I am exciteddd! I have signed up for cake decorating class in Greensborough and I am all set for my first day of photography course this coming Saturday. Life is just too short to not follow my heart. Life can be quite good if we change our perspective.

love to all...