Find the gift within painful situations

I see the gifts within every situation I encounter. I am strong, sure and steady and God already knows the solution to every problem in my life. I surrender this situation with love and faith to the Divine, infinite wisdom of God. Thank You, God, for assisting me in every way. I now accept Your help completely.

Since mother's day, Sammie showed improvements, day by day. She showed us signs that she wanted to live and is going to fight the battle. She did a wee, I was just elated! Then she went on and did a poo, I couldn't be happier. It was all the small things that she did that mattered. She started to look more like a baby, the fluid retention reduced as she did more wee. Her medications slowly reduced, the scary equipment were weaned off and things started to get better. She is having food/nutrient via IV as she's not ready to have breast milk.

Then on Day 5 and Day 6, I welcomed visitors. I asked for support and help. I suddenly felt empowered doing that. I asked all my friends to bring something special for her, to decorate the area around her cot. I could focus on this, on creating a positive and loving environment for her.

My family deserve all good and happiness. Our friends are amazing, they came with gifts and thoughts and wishes for her. They prayed for her in front of us. They brought in cards with words that touches my heart, toys, symbols of love and blessings to her. They made me laugh with jokes and stories, it made things more normal. I felt the love and their love and wishes for Samantha. We are lucky and so grateful.

Her condition is stable now. She is getting stronger, lots of poo poo and urine. The fluid that she accumulated in her chest reduced. I will be patient for it to be completely gone. I just hope that she continues to stay tough, strong and overcome this tough battle. My hearts aches so much whenever I know she's unsettled, more aware and probably feeling some pain. When I am visiting and she's uncomfortable, I would hold her head and allow her to hold my finger. I can't help but feel sad sometimes that she has to go through pain and suffering when she's so tiny. My heart hurts.

Doctors are very happy with how she was progressing. She's getting very cute, especially when she opens her two eyes and give you that innocent stare. I know that I will be taking a roller coaster ride, there will be ups and downs. I embrace the experience, focus on the good and have faith.

I believe there is always some hidden blessing, such as learning patience, compassion, forgiveness and strength. I will focus on the blessing and always feel grateful no matter how hard it is or will be.

Today, I am grateful that she is alive. I am blessed. I believe in her.