It's ok to be vulnerable

“What shames us, what we most fear to tell, does not set us apart from others; it binds us together if only we can take the risk to speak it.” – Starhawk.


The left chest drain is back. The doctors had to perform an emergency surgery to insert the tube into her left chest to drain out air, this time the problem is air and not much the fluid. When I found out about this when I took my parents to visit Sammie, I was vulnerable. Fear based thoughts flow into my mind. I was scared, sad and in pain myself. When I saw her, my heart aches so badly thinking of what she has to go through. I am so sorry, my precious little one. 

Fear is not love. I knew that I had to love myself more to overcome this as I felt hurt. I need the space to work through these emotions. I just need some time to really take care of myself emotionally. I know I can do it, I can be strong again for her.

I am very grateful that she's alive and giving her all to be with us. I welcome her with an open heart and  heaps of unconditional love. I love her very much.


Positive affirmation for the day: I give my body and mind permission to feel however they want to feel. I don’t try to manipulate or alter my feelings. They are what they are.